hmmm

Can't sleep even though I felt exhausted when I went to bed. Nursing is really kicking my bottom. I haven't worked in it for a year and don't remember being so tired. By the end of each day I'm so drained that I barely even get to speak to the kids before I'm ready to just lie down. I hate being dang old.

I'm losing it

I don't know how much longer I can hold onto my marriage. It crushes my heart to realize this. These 2 stepkids of mine have made it their lives mission to get me gone and I'm really thinking maybe that would be best for everyone. I truely love my husband but I'm wondering if it's worth sacrificing my whole personality to stay here. It's way too embarrassing to even post the things they've done to me lately. He even says that he doesn't know what to do with them.

Financially I'm not doing the best right now and I don't want my kids to suffer..but they are suffering living here.